So I know my New Year's resolution was to be more positive, but I just need to get this out there real quick:
My flight leaves in about four hours and I have never wanted to do anything less than get on that plane. I have this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach about going back. I don't want to go back to my apartment, I don't want to go back to teaching, I don't want to go back to living in France and feeling totally cut off. There have been a lot of things in my life I didn't want to do, but if I had any kind of work option waiting for me here in the US I would be on the first flight back with all of my stuff. You have no idea how much I DON'T want to go back to France. I know I'm not totally alone in this because the other assistants have said that they don't want to go back either, but I'm just completely dreading the next six months like the plague. Wish me luck that it won't be too completely horrific. :(
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You can always quit whenever you want to, life is too short to spend it miserable. Assistants quit all the time so it's not a new thing. See how you feel and try making some lifestyle changes if that might help. But yeah, I can understand how you feel..
Hon, I hear ya - I was definitely dreading going back today (and it turns out for good reason). After a day like today, I'm really starting to consider quitting early and taking the other job offer I've got on the table!!
it was definitely hard to come back today, but try thinking of all the great stuff there is in france . . . pain au chocolat!! cheap health care if the kids make you sick! cheese!!
are you giving private lessons at all? i feel like that keeps me sane, since working with adults is much more gratifying (they actually listen!!) you can talk in a grownup voice about things other than clothes and animals, and the extra wine money is nice for the harder days at school. don't give up!!
I'll add another "yeah, I get it" comment. I'm trying ti distract myself as much as I can by travelling and hoping a French friend falls into my lap, since apparently I'm incapable of meeting people. I was expecting a lot of things to be hard about living in France, but I didn't realize how alone I would feel. Best wishes for the rentrée.
Well, ladies... after reading the post and the comments... I just wanted to offer some comfort and suggestions... It depends on your local..really... because you are all in schools already so you probably have great contact with parents... or connections.. I almost took a teaching job this Sept.. I was sooo excited that I had received two calls from schools that wanted me to teach at their schools... Well, I took a job and then opted out gracefully... you know.. the pay was sooo much less than what I make teaching privately... that I just decided to stick with my private clients rather than to teach or attempt to do both... So, I am happy to say that after having only 6 students last year.. I have 18 students - mostly one at a time or two at the most... and I recieve a cheque emploi service...so it is all legitimate... It's wonderful and I have noooo job stress.. The students are wonderful and so are their parents... I highly recommend you to try this if you are getting really tired of the school route.. and I am not sure how it would work for those of you who are here on work visas but for Sam and Rochelle... I know that you are both able to work here... Anyhow.. feel free to contact me if you have questions... Take care...
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